Anger and Depression are two sides of the same coin. This can be confusing to caretakers, partners and employers. The individual whose life is fueled by anger may not be aware of the deep sorrow within.
Read more: Anger Depression Two Sides of the Same CoinWhen we have been abandoned, neglected at a young age, we exhibit symptoms or behavioral traits, yet not know why. When we have been held against our will. When we have endured unnatural things, our nervous system, our emotions and spirit know on a deep level that something is terribly wrong. But survival was our number one concern. Fearing death or more abuse, we still had the task of securing food, shelter or protecting our children.
With these strong pulls in two directions, and desperately needing love we stuffed down what we could to stay sane. So, it is not a surprise that only anger and depression remained after it ended.
Having survived, we are left with truly little. Perhaps our support system tells us a wholesome life is available and worth the effort. We are suggested to pray to a Higher Power, even if we are depressed and discouraged, angry or blame God for our misfortune.
Out of this simple beginning dreams and hope bubble up in us. Even though this new mindset frightens us we continue. We imagine ourselves breaking free from the present limitations. It is beneficial for us to get a notebook. Scribble out anger or grief. Find an emotion, feel it, and let out the hurt. We have lived in secret long enough! We can scream on paper before we are brave enough to scream out loud. Experiment with other emotions, such as amusement or contentment. Anxious and excited can feel the same at first, so you look to the outside experience to learn the difference. Look for beauty in nature, animals, or babies.
It is unfair that the victimized have the difficult task. But this is where we are. And this is the time to use a bit more courage. Courage to find who we were meant to be when God lovingly created us.
Finding your courage and desires will help to open up to a new world with new experiences and kind people who are willing to help. It will be totally worth the effort.
Our Creator saved me and gave me a good life. I will trust that outcome for you, as you search.
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