Welcome! Allow me to introduce Lady Jayne, my inner child. I met a few years back although she had been with me since birth. She and I will tell the story from the beginning. Taken to the back woods of the south then to the old plantations as migrant farmers. Surpassing our material poverty was our spiritual poverty. Lady Jayne helped me by absorbing the sights, sounds, and experiences, while we endured abuse, neglect, and violence. Blocking me from the overwhelm and hid the mental images of trauma.
Stored in my nerve memory; but was revealed in peculiar emotions and behaviors. My identity was in fragmented parts only coming out as the harsh reality of living demanded. Disassociation leaves little identity or self-worth. So I appeared like a character in play: as child, girlfriend, friend, wife, mother, employee.
Disassociation left me blind to see the real culprit. Our enemy, the shadow of death, who had claimed me and influenced my mind and d distorted reality. This shadow had laid claim on my life and soul at birth, twisted truth and outward attacks.
Due to fear I cowered from God, not trusting His goodness or ability to help. My tactics to survive were faulty, trying to self-protect and self-medicate, lack of knowledge, and limited resources. For me, it took most of my life to allow God to illuminate the darkness, declare His truths for me to understand and breaking through my spiritual bondage.
My soul sickness required the aid of recovery programs, counseling, behavioral and emotional therapies. However, now gave me lasting freedom until I allowed my Higher Power, Creator God to cleam me from the inside out. Lady Jayne was invited into my soul restoration, she revealed the Creators specifications, how wonderfully and uniquely made.
Today! Not perfect, but whole. Not perfect but the unique and beloved child of my Creator.
ABOUT THE BOOK
Fearless:Reckonings of Lady Jayne
Illuminates the conversations between a fragmented adult, the child within, the enemy and the Creator.arless: Reckonings of Lady Jayne, will capture the hearts of those who have endured incest, rape, mental control or were sold or trafficked. And after surviving find there is something missing, something lacking. Perhaps feeling devoid of inner peace and love. Feeling like an imposter. A reorganzing of the inner person is needed.
Inner Spiritual Growth is Possible
1. First an honest inventory as you sift through the mess of spiritual poverty.
2 Search for a connection to your Higher Power. The One who finds you special, did not mean for the harm to come and never left you.
A Power who shines light into the darkness and restore You! Lady Jayne and I offer you hope!
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Gail Willoughby was born in Cleveland, OH in 1957. into a life of sexual abuse and poverty. Hiding in addiction, she found an open door to recovery.
While learning the many disciplines necessary to become whole, she went on to teach and advocate for others. Giving her time to the non-profit sector by working for women’s rights, educating on domestic violence, job readiness, and safety.
She is a writer, Professional Organizer, Prayer Warrior, Intercessor to many.
FEARLESS: Reckonings of Lady Jayne © To be published
FEARLESS: Reckonings of Lady Jayne –EXCERPT
The shadow of death creeps into our lives without a sound or introduction, leaving most in bondage without realizing it. The shadow aims to destroy or mar innocence, delights in the isolated lives of the enslaved, neglected, and abused that have no voice. Whether home-bound or trafficked; living in fear and trembling; dismayed by caretakers who use them to squelch their feelings of inadequacy, quiet their own tormented inner voice, or as a commodity for income, entertainment. Bondage to the shadow appears to take the very essence of the person by distorting the mind and soul; leaving fragmented psyches to flounder for connectedness. Some appear to be in a self-induced slavery; forfeiting all in exchange for drugs, alcohol, food, or sex. Once the shadow is cast over their lives, many will not taste freedom again in this life.
How we did it!
Through a process of reckoning, fact-finding, studying and reading, and after much consideration, she calculated the cost of bondage, the benefits found in freedom, and was able to allow her God to break the spiritual bonds.
Lady Jayne's Reckonings 
Enjoyed your writings!
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Wow very interesting. I too come from an abusive childhood and thus a survivor. I protect my inner child to this day! Writing about it is very therapeutic. I write poetry and have expressed myself often on this topic. This inspires me to write more on my experiences. Thanks for sharing. Whether this is fiction or not it is very real and believable.
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Thank you Eva Marie! Lets stay in touch. If you would like I could put a poem or two on this site. I am starting another page to highlight the voices of others!
Best of blessings to you.
Gail
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Thank you for reaching out. will be starting a FB group discussion soon. would also love to share your poetry on my site when I am a bit more organized. great day!
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good
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Wow! I really needed to see this. Thank you! Many Blessings❤
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When I read: Once the shadow is cast many will not taste freedom in this life, it perfectly describes my daughters life. Her mind was distorted & she forfeited all in exchange for drugs & sex. Her battle is over in this life. We will meet again on resurrection day! Thank you Gail for sharing your experience.
God bless
Marcia
When will your book be available?
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Aside from this being a healing and therapeutic endeavor, you’re also helping others in the process. Don’t stop Gail!
What you wrote about really resonated with me. I was also abused and when I was 15 I knew I had no self-confidence whatsoever and became scared at what I was going to do to support myself once I left home. My answer? Work for an escort service. Having been sexually abused as well, that’s truly all I thought I could do in life.
Thank you for getting your story out for others, my friend!
By the way, Catwoman=^..^= is my alter ego for Kelly Jeanne…..
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KellyJeanne I am so delighted that you wrote me. this has been a long painful process, trying to articulate the experiences but more importantly, the process in my thinking that was distorted, and then the journey to spiritual and mental, emotional freedom!
please stay in touch. I welcome any of your insights. Also, you may look me up on Facebook. I have a page and a private group to help others. All of this is in its infancy phase, and need people to converse with. so others find
ding my pages feel comfortable connecting. Facebook Reckonings by Lady Jayne is the page. Spiritual Battle: Refining mind, body, and soul is the private group. I need your facebook name to invite you in.
God bless all of your endeavors and your journey! Gail Merda Willoughnby.
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Dear Gail…. I believe in this short reading of your website that we are soul sisters. We have much in common. So much. I’m looking forward to staying in touch with you.
Love and blessings,
Barbara Kompik
Michigan
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I can not express fully what I feel in my heart today for having connected with you today! We will keep in touch, most definitely! God bless all you do!
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Dear Barbara, i have found two strong beta readers. they are offering useful suggestions. God is touching my efforts. Hope you are well and blessed.
Gail Merda Willoughby
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