As survivors there is the task of rejoining the fragments of our psyche, healing our nervous system and emotions. The difficulty lies in our inability to trust our thinking, trusting God, and trusting those who are sincerely trying to help.
We lack trust in our gut intuition and rightly so. Since we had no knowledge of the deceiver’s influence over us and the abuser, while abused. The deceiver attached to us at such an early age, we think the menacing inner voice we hear is ours, and we must be defective, and not of value. The truth is the deceiver laid claim on our lives and now stubbornly refuses to release us.
The torment to the mind and emotions is subtle and difficult to detect. Evidence is in our self loathing “I am Broken”. We have labeled the effects, as PTSD, mental illness, a split personality or exaggerated paranoia. For some we will exhibit spiritual manifestations in our physical body and environment. This will be seen as a poltergeist and told it is a lost soul trying to come to terms with something, before departing. In an effort to escape the torment, many turn to alcohol, drugs, or sexual addictions. Some fear everything and endure unending nightmares.
So this is where we find ourselves. But many have recovered, finding ways to cope with the symptoms or residual effects of abuse. Some will push through fear courageously and reclaim their spiritual essence. Who they were created to be before this shadow covered them and enticed abusers.
Perseverance and a daily surrender to God, led me to a contented joy-filled life, and spiritual freedom.
Lady Jayne is my God-created essence. She is the one who held on to my resilience, courage, and hope until I could trust my God. I got the help I needed to untangle truth from lies which turned my turn my life around. Lady Jayne and I need to announce the relentless pursuit of our Creator! Lady Jayne and I invite you to courageously follow us so that you too can persevere. Never Give Up!
Lady Jayne's Reckonings 