The Fisher King

Posted on September 5, 2022September 5, 2022 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

story adapted from Richard Rohr, *Quest for the Grail* (New York: Crossroad Publishing, 1994), 57, 19–20.

The most common version of the Grail myth takes place in a medieval kingdom. The King is tragically wounded, and the kingdom is in disrepair. Father Richard describes the situation:

Most versions of the Grail legend begin with a wasteland kingdom, ruled over by one called the Fisher King. Crops are dying, monasteries are empty, and the people have no hope. All the king can do, because his wound refuses to heal, is fish all day—that is why he is called the Fisher King. This name has Christ connotations, since Jesus too was the “fisher of people.”

Fishing is the appropriate symbol of dipping down into one’s own unconscious. The sea is the natural image of the vast unconscious. I think this is the reason we can sit by the ocean for hours and watch it with fascination—waiting for the gift from the sea, waiting for something to show itself.

For author and depth psychologist Carol Pearson, the Fisher King is an archetype connected to inner places of suffering and longing:

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Moments of Weariness in our Journey

Posted on March 23, 2022March 23, 2022 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

I am weary. I have been writing and revising my manuscript for four years now. In writing a memoir, there is the apparent need to go back through the trauma experienced. I have found continued healing while going through this process of writing. The positives are that this going back also reinforces the lessons, techniques and prayer practices that have brought me out of darkness into a world of recovery and true freedom.

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Affects of Sexual Abuse: LIES, Bite Size Bible Truth, Spiritual Warfare, Thoughtful Living

Who put the road block in place?

Posted on January 19, 2022 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

For survivors of trauma and addiction, roadblocks were put in place before we realized it. We remain unaware that a roadblock exists, believing we are just like everyone else, until we try to expand ourselves into an adult individual. If we have successes great! But such is life, and there are challenges all along our way. There is illness, loss, death, lost jobs, financial uncertainties, or isolation from families.

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Others' Views

Cinderella. Helpless victim? I don’t think so …

Posted on August 21, 2021 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

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Cinderella: Done Dirty

by MELISSA in MOVIE on Vocal

An exploration of society’s slanderous misreading of one of Disney’s most iconic princesses of all time, and how this indicates a dangerous shift in our values as a culture.

It’s 1950. You’re Walt Disney.

It’s been two years since production was fast-tracked on one of your studio’s most risky ventures. Your last three animated films, made with love and care, flopped in the midst of the Second World War. You’re millions in debt, and you’ve just finished plunging yourself farther into the hole — all for another feature-length animated project, to be given the same love and care as your previous works.

Unbeknownst to you, this film will not only catapult your studio out of debt, but also become an enduring classic in American cinema.

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Bite Size Bible Truth, Spiritual Warfare, Thoughtful Living

FLOWERS IN THE SIDEWALK

Posted on August 11, 2021 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

In the city, we are often removed from the inherent beauty of creation. Looking down so as not to trip on uneven sidewalks can only provide a downcast focus of cigarette butts, weeds, dirt, spit, discarded food and wrappers, and flies. Yet our Creator calls us to look up-to look around -to seek His kingdom on earth. Where is this kingdom?

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Affects of Sexual Abuse: LIES, Bite Size Bible Truth, Return to your true created essence, Thoughtful Living

EXPOSED TO LIGHT

Posted on August 6, 2021 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

After what we have experienced in secret the idea of being exposed is quite painful. Had we not already had our bodies exposed to lustful eyes and hands? Yes! However the illumination I speak of has an opposite and profound effect on returning to our pre-abuse identity. Leading us out of a fear filled lonely place to a place of joy filled resilience and healing.

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Others' Views, Return to your true created essence, Thoughtful Living

Trauma and Silence

Posted on July 26, 2021August 11, 2021 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

“Both the cross and the lynching tree were symbols of terror, instruments of torture and execution, reserved primarily for slaves, criminals, and insurrectionists—the lowest of the low in society.”

Father Richard Shares……Today I share a contemplative poem from CAC friend and writer Felicia Murrell. Felicia’s words combine a deep awareness of God’s presence while clearly naming the collective trauma of police brutality and lynchings. It is worth remembering, as Black liberation theologian James Cone (1938–2018) points out, that the lynchings of African Americans and the crucifixion of Jesus share much in common: “Both the cross and the lynching tree were symbols of terror, instruments of torture and execution, reserved primarily for slaves, criminals, and insurrectionists—the lowest of the low in society.” [1] There is something about poetry that gives us permission to sit with the paradoxes of our pain, perhaps especially when addressing traumatic suffering. I invite you to read Felicia’s challenging words slowly, allowing your heart to break open to God’s love amidst the suffering of the world.

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Affects of Sexual Abuse: LIES, Spiritual Warfare

What hinders thriving after surviving?

Posted on May 17, 2021August 11, 2021 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

**On whom will we listen and depend on for guidance?**

As humans, we have collectively fought the odds of survival. Whether from climate, disease, or abandonment. Surviving is something we do! Going beyond survival; thriving after is vexing; trusting our unseen Creator’s voice and guidance, after defeat or mistreatment, becomes the real test of valor.

We rely on our thoughts to be self-generated and a reliable guide. It seems as natural as breathing to believe our thoughts are safely generated by us and intended for our own good. We act off of our thoughts or when feeling inadequate, will lean towards co-dependency, attempting to draw strength from another person. believing without them survival may not be possible.

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Affects of Sexual Abuse: LIES, Inner Child, Return to your true created essence, Spiritual Warfare

Spiritual Warfare the Battle is Real

Posted on January 24, 2020January 29, 2024 by Lady Jaynes Reckonings

Enduring abuse since infancy I was tormented with nightmares and symptomatic PTSD. However further insight exposed spiritual bondage that attached to my soul before I was aware, with the ability to influence my thoughts and behaviors. A spiritual malady went undetected for years and had not been addressed in my recovery program and not understood in my church. When father died memories surfaced. Counseling: led me to think it was dealt with. However, when mother died strange things began to happen in my home, to me and my family. So blatant were the attacks I no longer had the luxury to stay in denial, under the label of dysfunction. The battle between good and evil is real.

Coming out on the other side, I am living fully and contentedly with gratitude for God’s care and protection. To honor the little girl that I blamed for so long and her brothers; Lady Jayne will now tell her story. While she speaks, I am constructing a manuscript for publishing. Beyond the book I feel called to find others like me who need a companion while breaking the bonds of our enemy and to give guidance and encouragement to freedom.

I call the one who binds us the shadow of death. As his shadow permeates all areas of our life experience. Also the shadow offers no life sustaining light. My prayers are to touch all who visit!