Coming into belief we bring with us bitterness, disappointment, and disillusionment. Things had not been going our way and then someone presented another option. Faith. We considered that something different could transpire if a connection with an unseen God could be made. Usually, something devastating happens and our own resources and ideas to fix have been exhausted. This is what happened to a would be new believer and to thosw who believe in God but have put Him on a shelf.
Questions emerge: If God wants what is best for me how come -this happened? Where was God when my loved one died. Why did employment not come? Why did I have to lose my home? Why did my marriage fail? Why was I abused, and no one rescued me? These are valid questions.
The answers will come or it will make more sense after the connection to God has taken hold and deepened. The process of turning toward faith in God, feels like a wrestling match. Spiritual bondage contains a voice that condemns us, tells us we are not worthy of a new way of life. The wrestling comes when we try to silence the relesntless lies in our head, feelings and thoughts of resistance and our attempt at surrendering. This is when we decide to let our little plans and expectations go and turn towards a loving Creator who knows the big picture.
When faith takes hold, we discern things in whole new way. We find that our Creator was in all of our moments even the most difficult. That our Creator is active in the unseen realm and is able to comfort and heal no matter the loss. We find our perspective changes and we find a piece that surpasses anything we have previously known.
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Lady Jayne's Reckonings 