Most who have been abused at home or trafficked attempt to find a savior at school or on the streets. The new relationship holds the illusion of safety, belonging, and being understood. Usually we are not aware that the new relationship serves as a bandage over strong emotions of loneliness and low self-worth. The new relationship is a distraction from ourselves, aids in blocking out reality and hinders further healing.
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Usually appearing in my last dream before waking. These dreams used to be filled with overwhelming emotion, fear and the torturous influence of the shadow. So much so that I could not process the actual memory, only cope with the symptoms. A fight or flight PTSD response.
Since my recovery programs, counseling, and journey within with my God, resulting in spiritual freedom, these dreams are gentler. Still conveying a similiar message but now something more bite sized, less traumatic. I can look at, give to my God, my loving Creator and then set aside. Allowing my day to open up to joy and anticipation.
Continue reading “Ending Entrapment”
Attacks from our spiritual enemy threatened Lady Jayne’s and my physical, emotional, and spiritual safety and nearly destroyed a family.
Continue reading “Distorted Reality due to the Tormenting inner-voice”
Why do our knee jerk reactions and harmful thoughts persist after we have found a Higher Power and are recovering from addiction or abuse? Repeated thoughts, whether of our own making or of the enemy, have created ruts in our brain synapse and nervous system, and belly-brain.
Continue reading “It is Helpful to Know”
As survivors there is the task of rejoining the fragments of our psyche, healing our nervous system and emotions. The difficulty lies in our inability to trust our thinking, trusting God, and trusting those who are sincerely trying to help.
Continue reading “Let the Journey to Spiritual Freedom Begin”
We do not like to retreat. If we are pushed, we push back. If we hit a wall, we bang our head for a while thinking that our stubbornness and unwillingness to retreat will remove the obstacle and open the desired door.
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Abused or neglected in our developmental years leaves us confused. Our God given compass does not function appropriately. We are loyal to the abuser and mistrust others that may come into our lives to show us a better way. We may believe everyone lives as we have and that this is as good as it gets. Curiosity for freedom does not exist or is held within. Sometimes we know something is wrong but believe we deserve the way we have been treated because we are somehow defective.
Continue reading “Lost but now I can be found”
Redemption is sought by many, but most of us would not recognize it if it looked us in the face. We can agree that there is a desire to be restored or saved after a significant loss; something was taken or had enslaved us. But where can we satisfy this desire?
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Coming into belief we bring with us bitterness, disappointment, and disillusionment. Things had not been going our way and then someone presented another option. Faith. We considered that something different could transpire if a connection with an unseen God could be made. Usually, something devastating happens and our own resources and ideas to fix have been exhausted. This is what happened to a would be new believer and to thosw who believe in God but have put Him on a shelf.
Questions emerge: If God wants what is best for me how come -this happened? Where was God when my loved one died. Why did employment not come? Why did I have to lose my home? Why did my marriage fail? Why was I abused, and no one rescued me? These are valid questions.
The answers will come or it will make more sense after the connection to God has taken hold and deepened. The process of turning toward faith in God, feels like a wrestling match. Spiritual bondage contains a voice that condemns us, tells us we are not worthy of a new way of life. The wrestling comes when we try to silence the relesntless lies in our head, feelings and thoughts of resistance and our attempt at surrendering. This is when we decide to let our little plans and expectations go and turn towards a loving Creator who knows the big picture.
When faith takes hold, we discern things in whole new way. We find that our Creator was in all of our moments even the most difficult. That our Creator is active in the unseen realm and is able to comfort and heal no matter the loss. We find our perspective changes and we find a piece that surpasses anything we have previously known.
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Lady Jayne's Reckonings 