Abused or neglected in our developmental years leaves us confused. Our God given compass does not function appropriately. We are loyal to the abuser and mistrust others that may come into our lives to show us a better way. We may believe everyone lives as we have and that this is as good as it gets. Curiosity for freedom does not exist or is held within. Sometimes we know something is wrong but believe we deserve the way we have been treated because we are somehow defective.
Under the heavy hand of an abuser, we have spent more time watching them diligently; their moods, needs and wants and little time or regard for our own internal needs. Using them as our compass, many become an empty shell of our original selves without knowing it.
Finding blogs from other survivors or listening to podcasts can be the beginning of recalibrating your inner compass. Finding where you are and where you might want to go. What has been helpful in your life in waking you to new possibilities?